The Damned and the Saved

Last Day

Alright, for all my talk of having moved on mentally, I have to admit that seeing all the last-day things - the set tear downs, the goodbye messages - has got me feeling pretty emotional.

It's been a hell of a run.

Writing for the Supernatural fandom got me back into writing, and since 2008, I've written 1 contemporary novel that I scrapped, and 1 epic fantasy novel that I'm currently doing edits on and want to eventually finish up to be something I'm willing to show to people. And really, I'm not sure whether another show or fandom would have really sparked that "I need to contribute to this" energy that I got with Supernatural... maybe... but more than likely not. I've also met a TON of great friends through the show - one of which gave me my previous job, which eventually led to me gaining the experience to apply to the job that I have now, which is going REALLY WELL (knock on wood) and might actually lead to me earning a living wage for once in my life. 

Basically, I'm trying to say that as much I already filled my days with other things, Supernatural has shaped a large part of my life... even to the point where when my sister invited me to move to Vancouver, one of my thoughts was "well, it'd be cool to live where Supernatural films - maybe I should do it." 

I'll definitely miss sharing a city with the boys and looking for a black Impala whenever I pass by a filming site.

The goal is to get back to rewatches this weekend. Thanks to all those who left kind comments on my last post!

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 I realize that basically since the show went on hiatus back in February(?), I have done nothing but post messages that say that I'm alive and that I have plans to start doing rewatches again soon....

... listen, I don't need to tell you that it's been a weird year. 

With the show finishing off in October, I do really want to finish up my S14 rewatches, post the clothing catalogue, and basically get that entire task squared away.

The problem now is that my schedule doesn't revolve around SPN posting anymore, so it's really hard for me to find the time. And, the truth of the matter is that I've moved on mentally as well. Don't get me wrong, I'm still curious about how the show will end - I'm still really looking forward to seeing the final episodes, and the special about the show too, etc. But since these last few seasons haven't exactly been my favourite, and my mind has already moved on to the next obsessive passion, it's hard for me to enthusiastically sit down and do a rewatch or work on the clothing catalogue. So, it becomes a task that is a low priorty for me. It becomes a task that's a little more "work" than "leisure." If I have a day off, I'm more likely to spend it enjoying new things.

And lets be honest, the majority of people who read and commented on my rewatch posts have moved on to. There are maybe one or two people who still engage with me regularly on here, and while I appreciate them immensely, it's still not the same as back in the days when I had high engagement and felt that people actually cared whether I posted or not.

I AM GOING TO FINISH THE REWATCHES. I mean, for chrissakes, I've got 1.5 seasons left to be a completist about the show. I'm going to do it. It's just a question of how swiftly. I was supposed to do one this weekend, but instead I hung out with my friends and participated in a virtual bookclub, and drank a glass of whiskey at night which makes me mostly useless and I know it.

And I'm going to finish the clothing catalogue too - though I don't know how many years later it's going to stay up, since it cost me hosting fees for all the pictures every year. But the core of it will remain. The clothing catalogue may look a little different this year, because I thought I was being clever by not updating my files as I went (time consuming) and instead just taking notes to update them later... and now I've accidentally lost half my yeah, instead of pinpointing the scenes where they change clothes, it might be more vague, like "Dean wears this in the first half of the episode" because I can tell that much from my screencaps that I take as references while I watch.

ANYWAY, this is the latest "I'm still alive and I promise to get back to rewatches" sorry if I've let you down this year when you needed some familiarity and distractions. It's been a bit of year for me too though - like, my mother got major surgery in February, then suddenly global pandemic, then I switched jobs and was working two jobs, then I was once again visiting my mother and working evenings and weekends because I was in a different timezone with a new job... and now I'm back in Vancouver, and I'm fairly settled into the new job, but I've only been here two weeks, so I've sort of been forgiving myself a little in how slow I am to figure out what exaclty my schedule looks like in this new world.

My current loose plan is to start rewatches again this week/end. 

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What do you mean it's already 9:30?

See, this is what happens every day. I finish work around 2 or 3 if I'm lucky (a couple of times it's been 5 or 6). Then I think, okay, I have a couple of things that I need to do this afternoon, but that should finish by 5 or 6, then I have dinner - and by 7 or 8 I should be sitting down to watch an episode of Supernatural, so that I can get my rewatches done and the clothing catalog completed....

... but then it's suddenly 9:30, and I've only just finished dinner. I still haven't exercised at all during the day, and I'm getting really tired of sitting... so, fine, I could go for a walk, or exercise in the apartment if it's bad weather... but then that'll take me to 10 or 11, and then it's far too late to start on an episode of Supernatural... and if I do Supernatural first, then I'll be distracted because I'll be wanting to exercise rather than do Supernatural, and then by the time I'm done the episode, it'll be too late to go for a walk or exercise, and then I'll end up feeling unhealthy and in a bad mood, and that's no good. 

RAR. Anyway, I only finished half that course last weekend. So, I'm probably going to be working on that this weekend as well. I will seriously attempt to get Lebanon watched. I will. 

I'm just.. apparently super bad at time management. What I really need to do is is not be social AT ALL. Because I think what happens is that when I get off work, what I do is go on social media to see what my friends are up to, and then I get sucked into that black hole.

I'm sorry I'm so bad this year at updating and staying on top of things. This year as just been SO STRANGE. 
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Hey, where'd I go?

So, apparently nearly a month ago, I was like - "with all this quarantine stuff and the inability for me to have a social life, SURELY, I will get more rewatches done and publish the S14 clothing catalog by April or May" ... but apparently just because I don't have to leave my apartment, doesn't mean that I can suddenly manage my time better.

In my defense, I was going to get back it this week - but work is crazy this week, so I don't think that's going to happen.

I should also mention that two weeks ago I was a special guest on the Supernartural podcast "The Plaidcast" talking about the S6 episode The French Mistake. It was a ton of fun! I suggest you look them up on Stitcher or iTunes. You can hear my voice! I sound vaguely Canadian. - LINK:

Anyway, the next episode in the rewatch list is Lebanon, which is another part of my problem, because I actually want to have the time to do that episode justice, so I need a 4 hour window (when I'm not exhausted). At this point, I've learned not to make promises - but I at least wanted to let you all know that I'm alive and well. Canada, in general, is doing okay, all things considered (Would I prefer to be in Germany or New Zealand? - of course! No surprise there. That was actually the case prior to the pandemic, just because those two places are great in general.)

This weekend I want to get an online course done for one of my jobs that I currently can't actually DO, but once this whole thing blows over, I'll have this course done and that'll be good once I get back at it.

So, rewatches will resume sometime next week - is what I'm hoping.

I hope you all are well and managing to stay safe.

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REwatch S14: Damaged Goods (14x11)

And we're back, so soon - because I've got nothing else to do, and I CERTAINLY am not going to the Grand Canyon this week like I was supposed to... it's okay though, the Grand Canyon isn't going anywhere. I'll see it eventually.

Damaged Goods

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Oh god, there's commentary? Do I have to watch this whole episode again? I'm going to put that off for another day. First, cut scenes:

Deleted scene 33:
The kidnapping of storage security guy. Nothing special.


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That's the episode!

It was good commentary! I liked that!

As usual, let me know what you thought in comments. Once again, sorry if I'm overly negative in this one - i just really hate Nick storylines and it's hard for me to get my enjoyment back up around him.

I'll try to do another episode (or two) this weekend. :) This entry was originally posted at
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Quick Reaction: 15x13 Destiny's Child

WE'RE BACK! With more quarantined reactions... but tonight, I DID have a glass of wine, because drinking alone is fine if everyone else is doing it. :P

Sadly, as announced on twitter today, this will be the last new Supernatural episode, until probably both Canada and California come out the other side of covid19. So, let's all do our part not to unknowningly spread this thing! Stay at home if you can, and keep 6 feet away from everyone if you do have to go out.


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Let me know what you thought in comments!

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Rewatch S14: The Spear (14x09) and Nihilism (14x10)

Quarantine rewatches begin! Let's get back at this folks... I've got 12 episodes to go to finish off S14, and due to a temporary production shut-down, we're not actually sure anymore when the Series Finale will be - which means that THIS IS MY CHANCE to finish my S14 rewatch and get the clothes posted before the series concludes.

So, we return, after my time away - and try to remember where the heck I left off...

The Spear

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Anyway, good times, still a good episode! Let me know what you thought in comments! I'll be back either on the weekend or next week - depending on when I get bored of the other things I have to do in my apartment. :)

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Quick Reaction: 15x12 Galaxy Brain

Hello! It's been 3 weeks since I last posted here, and MY GOODNESS THE WORLD.

So, let's address a couple of things before we get into the episode:

1)My mother's surgery went fine and she's recovering at home, yay! I've flown back to Vancouver.
2)In a surprise turn of events, it turns out that I've been socially-distant my entire life and so I have had to make absolutely no lifestyle changes. The only thing that has changed is that I can now avoid my friends without worrying that they're going to take it personally.
3)Of course, it's not all great - I had to cancel all my March trips... the ones that were going to make it impossible for me to do rewatches until April at the earliest. The good news is that they were trips that I can do in the future when the world is better. The next thing I have planned is at the end of May, and I'm VERY MUCH HOPING that things are okay by then and the event isn't cancelled - because it's the only thing where it's my only shot at it.
4)The upside to having my trips cancelled though, and not seeing my friends as often as they'd like, is that I will indeed have PLENTY OF TIME for rewatches and working on the clothing catalogue. So, I'm going to be starting those back up probably this week (I spent all last week slacking, so now I'm bored of slacking.)

I hope everyone is staying well, and staying away from their 65+ parents and grandparents - please remember not to panic. Also, there is no need to hoard toilet paper, people. Please use your brains. This isn't actually the apocalypse. There is nothing wrong with the supply-chain.

Anyway, let's talk about an ACTUAL APOCALYPSE, and get into THE EPISODE....

Oh, I should say that because of the plague, I did not go to my friend's house tonight - and instead I watched a download. It also means that I didn't drink, because drinking alone on a Monday did not sound like a healthy lifestyle choice. So, I apologize if I'm not as entertaining... don't worry though, I still only took bad notes!

Galaxy Brain

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Uh, right, so...

"Hey - didn't you promise you'd get a lot of rewatches done during the hiatus? Didn't you plan to have S14 clothing finished by the spring? Where have you been?"

... so, a few things have been keeping me from rewatches. And they are, in no particular order:
1)My own disinterest in watching S14 again - as it turns out, it's not one of my favourite seasons, so it's hard to motivate myself to spend my precious free time on rewatching it. 
2)My mother had to get major surgery last week, and so I had to fly back to east to help her in the recover period - I brought my DVDs with me, full of hope, but honestly, between still working and hospital visits, I maybe only got 2 hours of uninterrupted quality free time every day... and please refer to point #1.
3)March is a SUPER busy month for me. I don't get back to my own place until next week. And then I'll be gone again a total of 10 days throughout the month. When I AM in town, I have to put in as many hours of work as possible, because I don't get paid vacation - so not working for 6 days out of the month is a major blow to my finances.
4)I have an opportunity to do another art project in April. I had fun doing the one I did in November, but that one ate up a LOT of my free time (including me pulling 2 all-nighters). So, we'll see. If I don't do the art project in April, then I may do rewatches then. 

The upshot of this is that I WILL get the rewatches and clothing for S14 finished. But it'll most likely be in April or May. And until then, I'm just going to focus on keeping up with S15 quick reactions and timeline.

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