One man's heaven...
Wow, that was a depressing episode...but, let's start at the beginning.
The death scene: Awesome! I love how some things remain true...Dean is still PISSED that someone killed Sam. I love how beautiful Sam looks when he's dead. That seems a weird thing to say, but ...yeah, it's like when young people sleep and they look beautiful and innocent and YOUNG.
I LOVE the idea that Dean and Sam are the elite of the Hunting world - that you don't want Dean Winchester on your ass. I love that Dean KNEW he was coming back.
The first memory of Dean's in heaven nearly had me crying. I don't even have words....just, the absolutely love for his brother and happiness because SAM was happy.
Cas telling him he's in heaven and asking him what he sees - "some see a river...for you it's a road" I love the reference to mythology there.
And finding Sam in the memory of Thanksgiving was amusing...and then Dean's "I wuv hugs" shirt...hilarious, just for the fact that we have Sam saying "wuv." Of course, it immediately becomes heartbreaking when Sam tries calling to his mother and she ignores him.
Then we learn that John and Mary's marriage was only perfect after she died. And man, how I LOVED Sam's line that he didn't realize/forgot "how long you've been cleaning up Dad's messes." Man, it upped my heartbreak for Dean ten-fold and who knew that was possible?
Then we get Sam in Flagstaff - apparently Sam ran away for two weeks once, and Dean thought he was dead and got in trouble. Meanwhile Sam was living it up and actually had a dog - of course named Bones, that's adorable. And then the pieces start falling into place, because this is the second happy memory of Sam's that doesn't involve Dean whatsoever - meanwhile Dean's very first happy memory was all about Sam.
Then to top it off, we get the night Sam ditched them for Stanford - and Dean suddenly realizes that all Sam's memories were of Sam alone, or Sam against the world, and Dean didn't factor into any of them, not even as an afterthought. For someone who basically devoted his whole life to keeping Sam safe and happy, that's a pretty hard pill to swallow.
It's cool that Zachariah can't find them even in heaven. Those enochian symbols are tattooed to their ribs on the bodies they left behind, but apparently that's good enough - or maybe it's different finding souls.
ASH!! Nice to see him again...and Pamela. I like Ash's throw-away line about a "practical use of string-theory."
I also like the idea that Ash finds them every time they come to heaven - which really isn't THAT much. I mean, Sam twice, Dean - well, I guess the Trickster really did kill him all those times, but sent him to heaven each time instead of jumpstarting his time in hell?
I don't like Pamela telling Dean to say yes. I really don't. That didn't sit well at all.
Then we get a twisted memory - with Zach using Mary to play on Dean's crippling self-esteem issues. That was just really mean, and I love how upset Sam gets about it. Being all sleazy with their Mum was a nice touch - sure fire way to piss a dude off is to come on to his mother.
Joshua...ok, for this scene, as soon as it changed to "the Garden" my sister was like "*gasp* AWESOME!!" because that's the Bloedel Conservatory and is one of our favorite places in the city! It's true, there's one aspect of living in the city where the show is filmed where it kind of takes you out of the action a bit when you recognize where they are, on the other hand though, it's frickin' awesome on a whole other level.
But then we find out that yes, God is alive and on earth, but no, he will not be intervening further. And man, there was a while there where Joshua was talking, and I really have to watch it again, because he was staring at Dean while he was saying very specific things...and I can't help but think that there's some meaning behind that. Still...
Then the boys wake up on earth, covered in blood. And man, those Hunter's were dumb, because if *I* was going to kill a Winchester, I would make damn sure I immediately salted and burned the bones....but now, those two idiots just left them there.
And then they had to break the news to Castiel - and that just killed me. But the worst, the absolute WORST was the fact that Dean didn't put the amulet back on - that he just ditched it too. That's not just God-EMF Dean, it's a gift from SAM! A symbol of the connection with to your brother that you wore for almost 20 years of your life! And good lord (irony!) how much more depressing can this show get?!
I'm really worried that Sam isn't going to hang on to the amulet. I'm really worried that it's just going to disappear like Dean's ring and bracelet.
Man...I don't even know...I'm worried about a whole ton of stuff.
Anyway, a couple of questions from the episode:
1. If Ash can't find John or Mary in heaven, where are they?
2. There had to be hidden meaning behind Joshua's speech...but what?
3. Why is heaven so goddamn dark? I need to download the episode now so that I can actually see what happens and not just hear it (for those who don't know, the brightness level of my TV is permanently set to "annoyingly dark". THAT + Supernatural, means that this isn't the first time I'll have to rewatch on my computer just to see people's facial expressions.
4. What's Castiel going to do now? I really wished Dean would have hugged him like he did his Mum and told him that God still loved him - but I guess that's a little bit too Touched By An Angel. :-P
5. If God is on earth, where is he?
6. If God is not going to intervene, what are the Winchesters going to do? Give in? Just keep resisting?
So, unlike the show, I'm going to end on a positive note. Susie and I are pretty positive people, we can't really help it. Tonight, Susie turned to me and said:
Susie: You know, they're actually quite lucky if you think about it.
Susie: Sam and Dean.
Me: How so?
Susie: Well, for most people, once their parents die, they don't ever get to see them again.
Now I'm going download it, because there was a WEALTH of time-line information in there.