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So, there's a fair bit of background to explain first, so let's get that done.

1. I'm (apparently) hilarious on FB.  Although my FB is on lockdown and I only have IRL friends and family on there (for the most part), so I don't have proof of this. I've been told several times by one friend that I should publish my statuses in a book. I've been told by another friend that I should turn my statuses into webcomics/cartoons, etc.

2. An old friend of mine does the self-publishing thing constantly - mostly with travel books, but also with... life-betterment books? I don't know what you call those things. Like... creative journaling, and how to be a productive writer, and stuff like that. Anyway, her latest kick is http://www.creativemermaids.com/ - anyway, if you watch her latest video there (Jun 16th), you can sort of see where my mind is at.


What is boils down to is that my friend thinks that what I should do is make myself an Author page on FB, do weekly videos (because that's what she's doing right now, so she's bias towards that format) and sort of leverage my fanfiction audience so that when I eventually finish writing my epic fantasty novel, I'll have built up an audience for it who like me.

Now, my issue with this is a)I really don't like putting myself out there. b)What the hell would I even talk about in a weekly video and/or podcast? (I'm not an expert on anything, and I feel like you should be if you're going to be talking about things.). c)I write like molasses, and this would just be another THING to do every week that wouldn't necessarily do anything or go anywhere. d)For all I'm a very open and honest person, I'm also intensely private. It's a really weird dichotomy that is hard to explain.

But, on the other hand, it's true that I never really take risks at all. I like to stay in my cave of an apartment and not really rock the boat too much. I asked a boy out once, he said no, so I never did that again. I don't even initiate hugs unless I'm drunk or forcing myself to extremely awkwardly. Sherrie tried to get me to move to Germany when I was 29 and it would have been easier to do so, but I deemed it too much work - so instead I've stayed in Vancouver for 8 years even though I'm constantly broke because Vancouver is stupidly expensive to live in. I don't participate in fanfic challenges because I always assume that I a)won't have any ideas, and b)won't be able to get it done in time, so why try? And that goes double for calls for submissions of original works.

So, yeah, do I switch that up? Do I continue the way I have been because it's quiet and comfortable and nothing ever hurts me here?

I wanted to get back into calligraphy, so I got a copy of The Prophet by Kalhil Gibran, because if I ignore the God stuff (or re-interpret God as a concept I'm comfortable with, rather than the popular concepts of God), it's a piece of work that is full of really good things to meditate on ... so, if I were going to be writing anything out slowly, I figured I'd go with it. So, to start off with, I just figured I'd read it again (because it's been at least 10 years since I have.) And I just read On Love section yesterday, and these words really stood out:

"But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing floor.
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears."

And man, if that didn't hit a little bit too close to home... and I had to start wondering if perhaps I was living in the seasonless world, where I laughed and wept, but shallowly... where I wasn't living life to the bottom of my soul.

Or, it could be that everyone else if full of shit and I'm living the golden life of contentedness where everything is pretty good all the time, and that's well worth not having it be absolutely horrible ever.

Anyway... that's all been on my mind.

I guess my question to you guys would be: If I did a weekly video and/or podcast - what would you want me to talk about? Or do you think that too many people these days think they're own voices are the best and I should just shut up and continue living my nice private life, to which very few people are invited?

Let me know your thoughts, please.

This entry was originally posted at http://hells-half-acre.dreamwidth.org/541313.html.



( 18 comments — Leave a comment )
Jun. 18th, 2017 02:40 am (UTC)
well I'm biased,but I always like your reviews, even when I disagree with them; you could always try and do more of those,or for different shows , movies, and so on;
Jun. 18th, 2017 03:26 am (UTC)
Yeah, my fear there is that I just don't watch enough - or as quickly. But, that's another excuse, I suppose! There's probably enough in my back catalog of things to watch that I could talk about. I'll add it to the possibilities list!
Jun. 18th, 2017 04:25 am (UTC)
Heck, even if you only did a weekly review of Supernatural to start--your reviews are a combination of hilarious and insightful and your mind takes fascinating left turns onto paths that are really unexpected and tangential--but always intriguing!
Jun. 18th, 2017 04:48 am (UTC)
I don't know... I just kind of feel like there are already people doing that, and better than me? The ones I listen to that talk about shows are always two people too.

BUT, again, excuses. I'll add it to the list of possibilities. :)
Jun. 18th, 2017 11:04 am (UTC)
There's a lot to be said for contentment BUT if you never take risks then you never know what's out there and what you might be capable of. So it's a toss up. Short term discomfort for long term gain?

There are a bunch of old adages that basically go along the lines of you get out what you put in - so the more you put in, the greater the reward. Now that doesn't always hold true, but it does often enough to tip the balance in favour of putting yourself out there. I'm pretty bad at self promotion too, but know if (and it's a big if) I ever do get a publisher for my magnum opus then they will expect me, the introverted author, to get off my spreading bum and promote my stuff.

You could always try it here first to see what sort of response you get - maybe like borgmama's suggested, do some vlog reviews of SPN episodes. Or podcasts - I don't see why it has to be video.
Jun. 18th, 2017 07:09 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think that's what I'm struggling with - I should start taking more risks, but which ones? What do I want to get out of what I put in? What's my goal here?

I guess until I can answer those questions, it's hard to figure out what direction to walk in once I leave my protective bubble. And that's probably part of what's been holding me back - if you don't know where you want to go, then you also don't know how to get there.

And yeah, I'd probably try podcasts before video - because there are times of the year where I can't stand to look at myself, so editing video would be pretty hard. Unless I did something artsy, like voice overs while the filming traffic out my front window, or my hands typing or something, but at that point,it may as well be a podcast.
Jun. 18th, 2017 11:04 am (UTC)
Do you talk the same way you write? If you do, then I'm sure you'd be entertaining ;) But why switch to podcasts when you can write? It's your writing that your facebook friends think is funny right? So write, and publish what you write. No need to switch to podcasts if you don't want to.

If you would like to give it a try, you should though. I would listen to talks by you on some interesting subject of your choice - especially those subjects you feel strongly about, or have had a particular opinion about of course.
Jun. 18th, 2017 07:11 pm (UTC)
I DO talk exactly how I write - or write exactly how I talk. I might find writing a little bit easier, because it sort of forces me to finishes the sentences I start, whereas when I'm talking I might flit around a bit more? I don't know, it's hard to say. Probably it's exactly the same though.

So, yeah, I don't know if I'll give it a try - I suppose it's just something else to think about. I'd definitely try it out here before I took it any other place.
Jun. 19th, 2017 11:59 am (UTC)
I'm the same with taking risks, but I have been trying to broaden my horizons a bit more over the last few years, and to say 'yes' more often.

For me, baby steps is always better; start with something reasonably small and then go from there. I also never used to do challenges for all the reasons you listed, but after I managed to do one low key challenge, I found that I actually liked it, and working to a deadline works well for me as too am a slow writer (my first challenge I think was spn_J2_xmas where you're given prompts but you don't have to use them, and you're also given a list of likes and dislikes, and a good few months to create something with a very reasonable word limit).

Maybe you could post a journal - sort of what you would post here, but a vid or podcast of it? Share some ideas or worries, and also link it to fandom maybe?

Wishing you all the best and I hope it goers well. Take care :)
Jun. 20th, 2017 05:00 am (UTC)
Yeah, I guess I just have to figure out what my baby steps are.

Thanks for the well wishes and suggestions! :)
Jun. 19th, 2017 04:17 pm (UTC)
I would LOVE either a weekly vid or podcast from you on SPN and/or whatever inspires you. Your reviews are wonderful in all the ways already mentioned here, so if you need encouragement, here's my cheering YES PLEASE vote!
Jun. 20th, 2017 05:01 am (UTC)
Thank you for the encouragement! I'm still not sure what the best outlet or course of action is, but it's always nice to know that I've got support for it. :)
Jun. 24th, 2017 08:18 am (UTC)
I would listen/watch anything that you put out there, including but not limited to anything Supernatural related. I also love hearing your thoughts on writing and your life. You would definitely have an audience! :)
Jun. 25th, 2017 06:03 am (UTC)
Thank you! :)

Maybe if Wayward Sisters does well, I'll do a Wayward Sister's podcast, so that I'm not competing with all the fine Supernatural podcasts out there. ;)

I honestly don't know what I'd end up doing. One idea I had was for me to do a podcast with another writer friend of mine - but I haven't talked to them about it yet and we're both about to go away for the summer.

It's definitely on my mind though - we'll see we'll see.

But mainly thank you, because it means a lot to know I have support!
Jun. 25th, 2017 06:08 am (UTC)
What are your thoughts on Wayward Sisters? Not gonna lie, when I saw the news about it yesterday I felt a wave of anxiety crash over me. I mean, I like the concept...and I LOVE Kim Rhodes...but I just feel like our show got really really lucky with Jensen and Jared and their particular chemistry, and I don't really think it's something that can be replicated, even with an interesting concept. Also I would be really sad to have fewer Jody episodes because she's off shooting another show. That being said...if they make it, I will watch it! (But possibly through my fingers. Haha.)
Jun. 25th, 2017 06:23 am (UTC)
I'm more concerned about the quality of the writing. As it stands right now, unless Robert Berens is the showrunner and sticks to his guns, then I don't have much confidence in it...BUT, I don't want Berens to leave SPN either, so that's a tough one.

I'm happy because it means Jody wouldn't die! So there's that.

Basically, I'd be willing to give it a shot, but I was joking about that podcast, because I doubt that I'd commit to it on the same level as SPN. SPN was an obsession that has now turned into a social event - but for most shows, I lose interest after one or two seasons, even when I like the shows.

So, it'd have to have amazing writing for me to stick with it for five seasons, like I gave SPN (and that enthusiasm carried over for S6 and about half of S7, and by then I'd turned it into a social event, so there was fun to be had with it there, so my interest in the storylines and characters didn't actually matter.) That sounds super cynical and like I don't enjoy the show, but I DO enjoy the show, I just enjoy it on a different level than I did before.

I honestly think that Supernatural is going to end after S14, so we only have two more years anyway. If they do the backdoor pilot in S13, then at most there will only be a 1 year overlap, AND they'd probably want to take advantage of the two shows in the same universe and do a crossover event.

Mainly though, I'd be thrilled for the Vancouver economy and the crew of SPN if the show DID get picked up, because that crew is a well oiled machine that has worked together for years - AND that production has given millions of dollars to our economy.

So, basically, I really really hope it does well - but I can't make any promises about my own engagement with it. I don't see it as a threat to SPN at all, and even if it did claim my current favourite writer, I'd be happy that it was given the best shot possible with him on the writing team. (Of course, that's a little unfair to new people they may hire that could be EVEN MORE AWESOME. But the truth of the matter is that they're probably going to pick showrunner out of one of the already announced executive producers.)
Jun. 25th, 2017 06:39 am (UTC)
The Deadline article I saw about it said "written by Berens and Dabb." Though that is probably referring to the backdoor pilot. (Didn't Dabb write Bloodlines, too?) I had not even considered the thought that they could poach Berens off SPN. That...might make me cry. He's like the one good thing we have going right now.

"Still enjoy the show but on a different level than before" is a good description of how I feel about it as well. Though I think for me that shift happened once I started watching in real time in S10. I recognized a quality-dropoff after S5, BUT - I remember crying real tears in S8 and S9, in multiple episodes! So clearly I was still invested.

It feels different now, but nevertheless, when it does come to a close, it will really be the end of an era. I know it will be for the best for them to stop while they're (somewhat) ahead - but the thought of not being able to tune in and see Sam and Dean on a regular basis does give me some real grief! You're probably right about season 14...that sounds about right.
Jun. 25th, 2017 06:55 am (UTC)
Oh yeah, like we talked about before, the latter half of S8 was fantastic, ESPECIALLY the season closer (especially everything with Sam and Crowley in the church.) I was definitely "re-engaged" at times, but just not all the time, you know? Like, "lalala...oh shit! ENGAGED!...and now we're back to la la la... wait! ENGAGE? engage a little... okay cool, la la la..." Whereas 1.9-7.2, I was like "ENGAGE ALL THE TIME!!!"

It'll definitely be the end of an era, and there will be a loss there for sure.

I definitely support the show ending though, just as much as I support it continuing. Both for the integrity of the show and also for Jared and Jensen's lives. It's a LOT to ask two guys to lead a show for 14 years, especially when many of those years they were the only two recurring characters, and even when they aren't the only two, they have to be in every single episode or the show doesn't work. Both Misha and Mark get/got to skip episodes sometimes and have at least 8 days off where and there, Jared and Jensen are working every day from July to April/May with only stat-holidays, Christmas, and maybe long weekends? And those are 12-14 hour days at least.

I'd go insane. I looked into getting into the film industry out here, saw "standard 12-hour day minimum" and said "oh hell no" and that was the end of that idea. :P

Anyway, that's a really long-winded way of saying "I agree with you."
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