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Timeline Stuff

I finally got the Season 10 Timeline posted to the Supernatural Wiki. Yay!

I also discovered that some helpful person had gone in and changed a bunch of the Season 9 Timeline because they thought they knew something that I didn't. I changed it back, because a)they didn't know anything that I didn't, and b)they changed the dates without changing the notes on the dates or explaining the reason for the change, so the timeline looked a mess because the notes were talking about things you couldn't see.

Anyway, hopefully I didn't just start a wiki page war. I'm all for people contesting my timeline choices, but you have to back it up with REALLY solid evidence and also have that date make sense for the rest of the season and series.

New Job

After being (practically) unemployed for 10 months, I finally got a job! Yay! I started it at the beginning of June. It's a part-time gig as a Personal Assistant to a rich dude. It's a good job - it pays well, my bosses seem to be happy with me so far etc. The only problem with it is that seeing that amount of... flamboyant wealth... makes me kind of angry.

New Old Job?

So, apparently when my luck turns, it really turns?! Another company got in touch about hiring me for a gov't contract - which was what I was doing before. It pays a HELL of a lot better. The only problem is that it's what I've been doing for the past 6 years and it's kind of depressing... and I originaly wanted to get the heck away from it. But, man, the job market sucks these days and after being (practically) unemployed for nearly a full year, I've kind of changed my tune a little. I mean, the truth of the matter is that I think I'd hate any job for the sole reason that I apparently just hate working for a living... so, I might as well go for a higher paying job that I'll hate as opposed to a lower paying job that I hate.

Anyway, because that job is dependent on gov't contracts, it's going to be a couple of months before I know whether I have it. At which point, I'll have to decide between the PA job and the new job. Though, since I already gave them written permission to put my name on the contract-bid, I may have already legally made that decision.

Cat-sitting Job

So, the reason I keep saying that I was "practically" unemployed is because I've been cat-sitting like mad in order to make at least a LITTLE bit of money while unemployed. Basically, that means that I've been driving to people's houses to look after their cats nearly every day for the past 9 months... with anywhere from 1 to 13 visits in one day.

The end result is that I am kind of sick of cats... and having to drive to people's houses to look after them multiple times per day forever and ever.

Now, on the one hand, this is what I do with all jobs - I just get SUPER SICK OF THEM. And then I quit... and then a couple of months go by and I'm like "why did I quit that job?! That was dumb, it was a pretty good job!" But man, right now I kind of want to quit cat-sitting. I took this weekend off and next weekend off too. So, maybe it's just a matter of making sure I take at least one weekend off a month or something, instead of just doing it forever and ever without any breaks.

My friend who has the same cat-sitting job doesn't really understand, because she is more of a cat-lady than I am and used to actually do the job for free... and also she has pet cats, and obviously doesn't get tired of cats. I don't have any pets for the very reason that I get really tired of being responsible for living creatures. This is also why I do not have children or a boyfriend. I have house plants - that's about the level of commitment that I can handle (and one of them is dying.)

Anyway... I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. I just know that occasionally when I get in the car to drive to one of my jobs, I have a moment where I think "what if I just kept driving..." and I feel like Forrest Gump, who, one day, just decided he didn't feel like ending his morning run. Of course, I can't drive forever or run forever, because some debt collector would eventually send the cops after me... and also I'd pretty quickly run out of money for food and fuel.

Summer Vacation

With the PA job, I can do a lot of it remotely, so I'm actually still going to be working for most of the summer... but I'm going to be doing it from Ontario/Quebec, while I visit my friends and family for the next month. Hopefully, because I won't have the cat-sitting, I'll also be able to write more... but I think I say that every summer and then spend all day doing errands with my mum or visiting friends and nothing actually ever gets done.

Anyway, I leave Vancouver next week and I won't be back until mid-late August.


I don't know if I'm going this year. Because of the whole (practically)-unemployed-for-10-months thing, I haven't been able to afford even second hand tickets. I might see if anyone is selling any silver/bronze or even gen-admin tics at the last minute for cheap... but we'll see.

In any case, I look forward to seeing my Fandom friends who are coming to town for the Con. So, I'm sure I'll hear all about it from them.


I've barely written in the past month, because I've been getting used to the new job and it's thrown my time-management skills out the window (if I even had them to begin with). I'm still working on the two novels. I'm still working on Part 3 of the most reason demented'verse story. I've got ideas for a third novel. I kind of want to expand one of my shorter fanfics into a novella-length version. I kind of want to write sequels to two of my other fanfics. I want to write more fanfic in general... but yeah, I really suck at actually sitting down and writing. I tend to sit down and read fanfic instead. Most recently, I spent an entire weekend reading a complete rewrite of LOTR with Bilbo as the ring-bearer a generation before. I mean, was that really so pressing that I had to read it all in as close to one sitting as I could get? No... it really wasn't... but I did it... and, as a result, none of my own writing got done.



Jul. 7th, 2015 07:56 pm (UTC)
I might have gotten that one too. I remember it being a pretty big day when I decided that I would allow myself a WHOLE YEAR of feeling completely f*cking lost after I graduated... like, I sincerely thought that "okay, you're feeling lost, but that's okay - BUT IT'S ONLY OKAY FOR A YEAR!" Now it's nearly 10 years later and I'm pretty much still completely frickin' lost, but I've finally decided that perhaps that's just what life feels like. :P

You will always have a bit of floor in Vancouver - or wherever the heck I end up.

And yeah, I figured you probably wouldn't be up for slash. It's just as well, you can save yourself the two days it took me to read that thing. :P (I have now spent 3 days reading two other "bilbo gets to do the trip a second time while having the knowledge of the first time" fics as well (also slash)... I don't know why I'm doing this. If I could afford therapy, I'm sure my therapist would have a field day with my chosen self-destructive behaviors.)

Anyway, thanks for the fic recs - I usually don't go for OC-driven fics... but I will keep them in mind!
Jul. 7th, 2015 08:13 pm (UTC)
Oh I didn't even realise that was what I was doing. I just drifted... for about three years actually. And it's not like I've got much further now (I have ideas that I want to hash out and work out if a) I actually have the will and b) I can find the right area in which to work) but at least I'm a little way to being financially independent. And also no longer living with my parents.

But yeah, I think that's what life feels like. :P

Yay! And if you ever want/can afford to come to London, you have a bit of floor here too. :D

Just... slash in Tolkien fandoms. I'm pretty OK with fem/slash anywhere else. Just, not there. :P

Oh neither do I, usually. But this one was so very worth it. Though come to think of it, it may have something to do with how much I know about the universe; it happens parallel to the main LotR storyline but draws a HUGE amount from things like the Silmarillion, Unfinished Tales and The History of Middle Earth. So... maybe bare that in mind. But she is a very well thought out character, I promise. :)
Jul. 7th, 2015 08:28 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I basically still consider myself drifting. I've been financially independent for some years now (except during a long stretch of unemployment in 2011... which I still haven't paid my dad back for and I'm hoping he's just forgotten about, or will, eventually.).. but yeah, in terms of what I want to get out of life or where I want to end up, I have no frickin' clue.

I will definitely take you up on that offer of a floor in London if I ever find myself with spending money again. :)

Just... slash in Tolkien fandoms. I'm pretty OK with fem/slash anywhere else. Just, not there. :P

That's how I feel about Supernatural. I'm fine with slash anywhere else, but there.

Yeah, the only reason I know as much as I do about the Tolkien universe is because a fair number of my friends (and one "celebrity" I follow on twitter) are huge fans and experts on it. Meanwhile, I've only ever read LotR once, and seen 5/6 of the movies. (I never bothered with the last hobbit film, because I like to avoid sadness... and Tolkien seems to have favoured the types of endings that everyone thinks are relatively happy, but I find absolutely miserable.
Jul. 8th, 2015 05:58 pm (UTC)
I don't think there's anything wrong with not "ending up" somewhere.

Yeah, I wish my brain had done the "Supernatural slash is wrong" thing but.. it didn't. To be fair though, now I only dip in and out of J2 so...

Pfft. I quit after the 1st Hobbit film. I'm not watch as a favourite book of mine is trashed. What do you find miserable about Tolkien's endings? The fact that not everyone is saved?
Jul. 8th, 2015 06:37 pm (UTC)
Yeah, true, the only "place" we all end up is dead. :P

I don't actually read SPN fic anymore myself. And yeah, only very occasionally will still read a J2 AU.

And yeah, pretty much. It's not even that not everyone is saved, it's that the main protagonists aren't either. I don't know, I'm super pessimistic when it comes to how I interpret things, apparently, so even the happy bits of Tolkien's endings, I don't find particularly happy. I think I've talked about it before, actually... yup, I did. We only touched on my pessimistic interpretation briefly though - but basically to me, going to the west sounds like committing suicide, or at the very least "giving up"... so, at least with LotR, the ending for Frodo is "Frodo was miserable all the rest of his days until he killed himself finally." Which, yeah, I'm sure LotR fans (such as yourself) would be appalled that I interpreted it that way, but I really can't help it. Sam's ending is the best one, because he goes home, has a wife and kids, and it's only when his children are grown and he's at the end of his life that he decides to join Frodo in the west.

As for the Hobbit ending, well... I haven't actually read the book, so I really don't feel like I can speak to it. But, although I know that the Durins dying makes for a lovely epic family tragedy, I don't actually LIKE epic family tragedies. Again, it's all personal taste and my own personal psychology.

My favourite stories are the ones where people come through them scarred and different, but able to eek out happiness in the world either despite or because of it. LotR just doesn't fit that bill for me, so although I love the universe it gives us to play in, and I love the craft of the stories, I don't like the endings.
Jul. 11th, 2015 10:23 am (UTC)
The West is... well, it's completely open to interpretation in LotR. And to be fair, it's an odd sort of concept really - because it's basically supposed to be heaven, but you don't have to die to get there and only some people can go. And written like that it sounds exclusive and everything but it's... there's a whole mythology that explains it and it's about the folly of man and all this kind of business. But it's happy, and it's good. It's the place Gandalf talks about when he talks of "a far green country under a swift sunrise", though he'd get that; Pippin wouldn't (I don't think, hobbit's are anomalies in a lot of cases). And I can't explain why because mythology, it'd take ages. But the point is that it's a reward, in many ways, and it's good. But of course, without this mythology to back it up it has a lot more, more negative interpretations - because you can't come back, because it's where elves go and the elves were fighting "the long defeat" and many other reasons. So I understand, even if I don't agree.

As to the Hobbit ending - well yeah, the Line of Durin doesn't have the best luck but it's in the vein of old epics - the hero dies but dies well sort of business. And that's what Tolkien was going for really - those epics. He was sad that Britain didn't really have them - King Arthur is very French in many ways - so he wanted to write his own. But no epic ends well - Beowulf dies, Sigurd dies, Gilgamesh dies, Brunhilde dies. In that respect Tolkien is much kinder - Earendil lives, Tuor lives, Aragorn marries the love of his life and they have children and a life together, as does Sam. Frodo and Bilbo and Gimli are granted gifts greater than many others. They win, and most people find happiness; Faramir, Eowyn, Eomer, etc.

But again it's a mythology thing, and without a lot of the background, the story is much sadder. And it's an epic, in the traditional sense, so it was pretty sad to begin with.

So yeah, this is me telling you I totally understand, but you're wrong. :P

(But I do understand, and every story is interpreted by the individual so really, I say you're wrong, but you're just as right or not as I am. We're just different.)

(I just wanted an excuse to write about LotR. :P)
Jul. 11th, 2015 07:02 pm (UTC)
Yeah, the thing is that I can't really help how I feel about the endings. I can understand why they aren't sad to other people - for all the reasons that you say, but my inner conversation sounds like this:
Brain: "See, these are all the reasons that the ending isn't sad - and I can see how they would make sense to others."
Heart: "Cool. I'm still sad though."
Brain: "Yes, well, apparently you've got it wrong."
Heart: "Don't care. That ending makes me sad and it's always going to."
Brain: "But..."
Brain: "Okay, sorry."

But I'm the same way with any story that ends happily in an AFTERLIFE - if it's an afterlife, I don't consider it happy - I consider it sad that they are no longer in the main life. And I certainly don't like stories where the happiness can ONLY be found in the afterlife rather than the main life, which is how I see Frodo's fate. But yeah, it really is just my personal interpretation and I'm sure not at all what Tolkien intended, but that's the thing about literature - I'm as right as anyone.

ETA: As for epics... yes, I agree that The Hobbit is written in the tradition of epics, and that epics have sad endings for heroes. The thing is though that I ALSO think those epics are sad! Haha! Basically, me complaining about the ending of the Hobbit is the same as me being upset that everyone dies in one of Shakespeares tragedies... but that's just the way I am sometimes. I prefer comedies, and I can't help it.

(I just wanted an excuse to write about LotR. :P)

Hahaha, I know. ;)

Edited at 2015-07-11 07:06 pm (UTC)
Jul. 12th, 2015 06:31 pm (UTC)
I think the point is that's it's not an afterlife because they don't die. It's more like, gaining immortality. But anyway, it makes very little difference. You feel how you feel. We'll just have to disagree - so you can read the fanfic and I've watch the films every Christmas. :P

Haha yeah I love epics - partially for the history and partly for the rhythm and partly for the utter ridiculousness of the stories. For instance, the Elder Edda has fisting jokes between Odin and Thor. What the hell man?