I'm still alive!
Christmas has been busy, and also, I've been lazy lately - but my Christmas-time job is winding down now, so hopefully I'll be able to ramp up time spent on fandom things!
Anyway, as per tradition, and even though I only wrote two full stories (and 20 ficlets or so), here is my annual Fic-Year in Review...
My favorite story this year (of my own):
I imagine the gods saying, We will make it up to you
It also wins for Most Pretentious Title - but I REALLY love that poem, you guys. I want it to be read at my funeral. Anyway, this is a Merlin fix-it, and the only explicit slash that I've ever written under the hells_half_acre name. And I really like it. I've actually read it a couple of times myself when I'm in the mood to read something satisfying... which, yeah, I'm not sure I'm supposed to admit that I read my own fics, but I totally do. It's basically why I write them - because I want to have them to read later, when I don't remember writing them as well and can enjoy them like someone else's work.
My best story this year:
Hmm... well, again, pickings are sort of slim here, so I'll go with I imagine the gods saying... again.
Story most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
The Time Traveler
I don't understand why this story has so many few hits on AO3, when ever other story in that fandom gets 2x more just by dint of being posted. It also has a sort of sucky kudos to hit ratio for the fandom, which tends to over-kudos in my opinon. So, either my story is way suckier than I think it is (I kind of really like it) or it just somehow got lost in the shuffle.
I mean, maybe I should have made it longer... maybe it's too confusing... maybe I should have gone for my original idea and had sections from the POV of people who weren't brain-damaged. I don't know. It's kind of frustrating though. Maybe I should have put a sex-scene at the end.
Most fun story:
Meet Me in SoHo
I love this story so much and it's sort of beyond frustrating that it's SUCH a weird niche. It's not even a crossover with any recognizable Harry Potter characters - it's a crossover with one of my original characters who just so happens to be from the demented'verse.
The truth is that I'd kind of like to turn this into something longer - something where we get to see the time between when Clint gets Nate's phone call and when Natasha tracks them down at the gay bar.... but it'd be SO self-indulgent, because it'd basically just be for myself and franztastisch and no one else would care.
Most suspenseful story:
Again, I don't really write suspense - but I guess I'd say The Time Traveler, just because I suppose you have the suspense of not knowing what's going on until you get to the end. (Maybe this story just sucks.... maybe I only like it because I know what's going on the whole time?)
Story with single sexiest moment:
Well, I didn't write any anonymous creepy porn this year... so I guess I'll go with I imagine the gods... because it's the only story with sex in it. Or... well, maybe I'll go with Nate and Clint making out in a club in Meet Me in SoHo, because that's pretty sexy too.
Story with single sweetest moment:
Sweet.... hmmm... I like Tony and Bucky's interactions in The Time Traveler. I think they were sweet, which is sort of a surprise considering the two characters involved.
Most unintentionally *telling* story:
Hmmm... this is a tough one this year. I guess there was that time that I got really drunk and wrote stream-of-consciousness style ficlets for nearly all of my fandoms. I mean, it's *telling* in that it tells us that I should endeavour to only write when sober. :P
"Holy crap, that's *wrong*, even for you" story:
None of them. Everything I wrote this year was pretty kosher.
Fic that shifted my perspective on the characters:
Hmm... well, Meet Me in SoHo was a catalyst in causing me to have a shocking revelation about MYSELF... but it's kind of personal, so I'm not going to talk about it here (plus I haven't figured out how to put it into words yet). Anyway, no shifted perspective on fictional characters this year, just shifting perspectives on myself.
Most disappointing story:
Well, I'm disappointed that no one likes The Time Traveler as much as I do, so I obviously failed there somehow. Other than that, just like last year, I'm disappointed that I didn't write more. Though, I should say that I've written about 24k of a novel and 18k of the next demented'verse installment, so, it's not like I've been doing absolutely nothing since June.
Hardest story to write:
Hmm... some of the June Ficlets were a struggle.
Easiest story to write:
I'd say the majority were fairly easy. Maybe Senior Auror Phil O'Shaughnessy was the easiest, because it was already something I was ruminating on because I had been mentally working out the details of the next demented'verse installment.
This year's theme and the story that demonstrates it most:
Even though I don't have health problems like I (unknowningly) had last year, my productivity still sucks? :P I DO have to figure out how to not give in to the procrastination monster... or the happiness in the short-term, misery in the long-term monster (ie: "I could work now and feel pride and satisfaction later... or I could goof off now, have a good time, and worry about how my life is a crushing failure at some later date!")
Seriously though, I don't know if this year had a theme, writing-wise.... even thinking of the stories that aren't finished yet.... I mean, I guess... I guess the theme could be how sometimes you or your loved ones can get lost a bit and no one even notices. Like, people can get so caught up in their own problems, that they don't notice any one else's - even though helping people with their problems can sometimes help you with your own. If that makes any sense. I imagine the gods saying... is sort of about that, where both Merlin and Arthur are really struggling with weighty emotional issues and they're inadvertently only making thing worse for each other while thinking that what they're doing will make things better.