It's Damned Demented Demons ... IN BOOK FORM.
LIke, it's actually THE SIZE OF A NOVEL...and I knew it was 100,000+ words, but for some reason actually SEEING it in bound in novel form is just astounding to me. And then I think that I wrote not one but TWO stories of that length, plus all the little individual stories and Seers, Souls, and Scotland...guys, I've basically wrote 2 novels and a book of related short-stories in 3 years.
And it has my NAME on it
You know, this makes me feel so damn accomplished, that it doesn't even matter that I don't have a job and I'm completely broke and I've been living below the poverty-line for the past four years.
sentra04 is going to make me a copy (she's also going to do Vile Violent Vacations and possibly the other stories and send me those too)...and I'm going to sit it on my shelf and when my original-fic novel is rejected by publishers, I'm going to look at it and think "Hey, at least the Supernatural Fandom loves me and thinks I write well, and they are the ONLY ONES WHO MATTER."
(It'll go on the shelf next to my Master's thesis, which is another thing that I'm quite proud of.)
(And yes, I realize that a lot of people in the Supernatural Fandom write novel-length fic/multiple novel-length fic every year....I'm just saying that MY GOODNESS WE ARE ALL AWESOME! DON'T YOU GUYS FEEL AWESOME?!)