I realize that basically since the show went on hiatus back in February(?), I have done nothing but post messages that say that I'm alive and that I have plans to start doing rewatches again soon....
... listen, I don't need to tell you that it's been a weird year.
With the show finishing off in October, I do really want to finish up my S14 rewatches, post the clothing catalogue, and basically get that entire task squared away.
The problem now is that my schedule doesn't revolve around SPN posting anymore, so it's really hard for me to find the time. And, the truth of the matter is that I've moved on mentally as well. Don't get me wrong, I'm still curious about how the show will end - I'm still really looking forward to seeing the final episodes, and the special about the show too, etc. But since these last few seasons haven't exactly been my favourite, and my mind has already moved on to the next obsessive passion, it's hard for me to enthusiastically sit down and do a rewatch or work on the clothing catalogue. So, it becomes a task that is a low priorty for me. It becomes a task that's a little more "work" than "leisure." If I have a day off, I'm more likely to spend it enjoying new things.
And lets be honest, the majority of people who read and commented on my rewatch posts have moved on to. There are maybe one or two people who still engage with me regularly on here, and while I appreciate them immensely, it's still not the same as back in the days when I had high engagement and felt that people actually cared whether I posted or not.
I AM GOING TO FINISH THE REWATCHES. I mean, for chrissakes, I've got 1.5 seasons left to be a completist about the show. I'm going to do it. It's just a question of how swiftly. I was supposed to do one this weekend, but instead I hung out with my friends and participated in a virtual bookclub, and drank a glass of whiskey at night which makes me mostly useless and I know it.
And I'm going to finish the clothing catalogue too - though I don't know how many years later it's going to stay up, since it cost me hosting fees for all the pictures every year. But the core of it will remain. The clothing catalogue may look a little different this year, because I thought I was being clever by not updating my files as I went (time consuming) and instead just taking notes to update them later... and now I've accidentally lost half my notes...so... yeah, instead of pinpointing the scenes where they change clothes, it might be more vague, like "Dean wears this in the first half of the episode" because I can tell that much from my screencaps that I take as references while I watch.
ANYWAY, this is the latest "I'm still alive and I promise to get back to rewatches" sorry if I've let you down this year when you needed some familiarity and distractions. It's been a bit of year for me too though - like, my mother got major surgery in February, then suddenly global pandemic, then I switched jobs and was working two jobs, then I was once again visiting my mother and working evenings and weekends because I was in a different timezone with a new job... and now I'm back in Vancouver, and I'm fairly settled into the new job, but I've only been here two weeks, so I've sort of been forgiving myself a little in how slow I am to figure out what exaclty my schedule looks like in this new world.
My current loose plan is to start rewatches again this week/end.
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